Dear @Dtube #65 // one daughter year is starting to feel like ten and I’m stuck in time.
It’s been a difficult few days around these parts — I think maybe the heatwave weather with no air con, few weeks away from seeing my daughter because of holidays and such like, my partner in another country who I’ve not seen in months, financial concerns and then watching things change rapidly (or break around) me has been a bit of an overload for me.
I know I can’t get everything done but I’ve had a case of ‘told you so’ moments recently where things have just stopped working or broke, kinda came in threes as well — so I’m very mindful of that and time at the moment, I’ve got all this time and space to do something with it and I’ve got the tools to do it — I’ve got zero excuse and I’m trying my hardest to hack through the sleep and heat, both really breaking me down right now.
I’m trying to flip the script on everything, certainly is a prep day today, I know for a fact that I can get myself setup on the video recording side of things and I’d like to get the format for the courses locked in as well, I’ve got the notes, I’ve just gotta record each little video, if I can do the format today I’ll be good to go for the rest of the week — I’m at crunch time week, it has to happen, no if’s or buts even if this version is clunky it can always be redone.
Especially if I’m gonna be having my daughter over here more in the coming six weeks I need to definitely get up early early so I can get my day all done before she arrives, if I can hit that 4:30/5am mark then I should be able to get a chunk done that makes me feel like I’m making progress, I’ll probably hit the hay after she has gone thou in the early evening just to adapt, thankful for the small but regular monthly income streams.
in between all the chaos I do have a lot to be thankful for that keep me going, my partner is doing well with her work and diet, my daughters great successes at school and the fact that she is going into a really good class in her next school just makes me feel positive for future — it’s just right now, I gotta pull my weight too, gotta disconnect the empathy chip a little and just go in deeper into the realisation of a few things.
Once they are up and running it’s going to be much easier to setup the camera and record a few more clips and then promote those on twitter - got a bunch of things I wanna play with too like byteball, that’s always been interesting to me but this airdrop makes it even more interesting to play with — that is if I can get the damn thing to finish syncing.
Plans don’t work without resources thou so it’s about time I started to improve everything all around and get back into my flow — once the flow returns there is no stopping me, I know it’s coming back I just got to resent the blockchain of me and we will be in good shape! :)
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