Leave me alone

in #fiction6 years ago

It's another frustrating night.


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To be honest, he doesn't even know what makes the night frustrating - he can't find anything that goes in his way, but there seem to be something. Something he cannot see, something that follows him to everywhere, something he doesn't like, something that is extremely hard to get rid of. Everything looks fine. No due dates to be met, no missing timetables, no items on the to-do list, nothing. He should just be casually sitting in front of his laptop playing his favourite games or hanging out with his online communities or just do something else he likes, probably drawing or something.

But something just feels off. There seem to be something blocking in his mind, something seems to be undone, something...just something. He can't tell. It's just a very strange and uncomfortable feeling.

Or just restlessness, he should say.

Whatever, he is totally sure that he has nothing else important to do, so he might as well jump into some Discord server to have some fun and hopefully clear the haze in his mind. But things seem to be a little different - every conversation is getting on his nerves, making him uncomfortable. Either their points are invalid, or just plain wrong, or just go against him in any way. Till the extent that he is asking himself if something is wrong with him - why everything just don't seem right here?

He decided to put the client on offline mode and do some other stuff after leaving a rant on another server with friends. "Explain why nothing seem to be right here, why my emotions are so unstable?"

Trying to walk outside in the moonlight doesn't work. Something is constantly screaming in his heart - something he couldn't understand. Is that the demon's scream? Or some ghost? Otherwise, why couldn't he understand it?

Bzzt. A vibration from the phone.

"Stressed?" A reply on the rant just now.

He decided to just sit down somewhere on the grass field and do some chatting there. Probably a different environment would work? "I don't know, but I'm just horribly restless now."

"What happened?"

"Nothing, I don't even know what."

"It's impossible, tell me more."

"...leave me alone."

He shut down his phone's mobile data connection and looked up. The sky is pretty blank, clouds hid everything above from being visible. Just like his mind now, blocking everything and he still don't know what went wrong.

A drop of water splatted on his forehead. It started to rain, but he is just stuck there looking blankly above.

Raindrops taste sweet, he thought as a few drops went into his mouth through his lips. The rain isn't huge, but his clothes and glasses are all wet in a few moments. A gentle breeze is blowing in his direction while the rain continued, "how comfortable," he thought, and sat that like a stone, blending into the night lights, melted by rainwater, and finally picked himself up after the rain stopped after a few minutes.


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The sky is now clear, with tiny little lights shining everywhere - stars, planes, and who knows if there are UFOs up there?

How crazy is it to stay in the rain for so long for literally no reason, and saying the raindrops are sweet? He don't know, but it seems that his mind is now cleared up, no more frustration, and it should be time to finally rest a little. Dragging a wet body back to his dorm, he slept after cleaning and drying himself up. Never he remembered himself sleeping so sound and calm in this week. To be honest, he don't even know what he did till now, but it seems to be fine now.

Probably doing some insane stuff once in a while can be beneficial then.

It's time to leave negativity alone then, he thought. Time for something better.


Yeah, leave negativity alone, everyone deserves a happier life. Seek help when needed, talk when needed, do crazy stuff when needed, and stay happy because that's what you should be doing as the most vital part of enjoying life.

Enjoy.

--Lilacse

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