I became panic yet I tried to look calm. I became disillusioned yet I tried to stay focus. I became impatient yet I tried to be patient. I became fearful but I tried to have faith. I forgot to breathe and was reminded to breathe. I selfishly wished they attended to my son first yet I tried to be mindful that other children were equally important.

The above would happen instantly once I stepped into the entryway. The entryway of Pediatric Emergency Department.

I thought I was fearless. Well I was so wrong in this. I thought I was bold to face any challenges. Well, not until when I needed to rush my son to emergency.

The entryway which I was so reluctant to step in. Because it would cause my son to be facing alot of traumas - needles, being strapped to perform the IV line, screaming out his lungs yet mummy was nowhere to be seen, etc. But this is also the entryway that we need to step in in order to save our son's life.

I silently wished that there will be more improvement done at the emergency department. Since every cases could be life or death, nurses and doctors should move faster. And yes according to procedures' wise, parents should not be by child's side when doctors put in IV line - I understand.

But what if the presence of mummy actually eases the whole process of putting in the line? Wouldn't this be easier for both the doctors and child? Wouldn't this cut down all the yelling and kicking from the child? This is my cry. My petition. Yet pardon me as I am not a doctor. I would not understand the reasons behind the procedure.

Yet I salute all doctors and nurses. They walk in and out of this entryway every single day to save life. They are brave. They are sacrificial.

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