Introduction

Hi there. This will be my first blog, ever, and would like to use it as a means of introduction. My real name doesn't really matter now because my username pretty much describes who I am and is all you really need to know.
I am not a blog person, at all, but my good friend, who is also a member of the Steemit community, (Hi Eugene!) suggested, or more like bullied me, into start my own blog and document my journey of learning to grow in my uncertain and indecisive world. We'll see in time whether this was a good push :)
A little about myself. I live in a small town with my family. I have 4 older brothers whom I love very much, but whom I don't get to see regularly as everyone lives their own lives. It's rather sad that we don't get together more often. BUT, that is something I will be trying to change in the months to come. Hold thumbs for me, will ya?
Both my parents are well and happy together, which is fantastic as it's so easy to give up these days, like one of my brothers already had, and the other seems to be going in the same direction. It's heartbreaking and probably the biggest reason I don't want to get married or have children. Or at this point at least.
But my parents have been going strong for 44 years now, so I'm pretty sure they'll be going all the way. I admire their support for one another which was, in my opinion, one of their main objectives since I can remember.
We come from another small town but when I was in high school my dad had to close down his business and sell his house, our beautiful great big house, but fortunately we had an alternative and moved to the coast, a smaller town, a smaller house, a better quality of life. We've been here for 18 years. The company that he is running now has very good prospects, but it is unfortunately struggling a bit.
After high school I went to work in the UK for 2 years. Loved the experience. I would recommend anyone to do that. You grow and learn so much about yourself and learn to become dependent, because mom and dad are nowhere near to help you out of a mess. Or well, in those days it wasn't that easy. I suppose with technology these days everything can be sorted via cellphones. How small the world has gotten...
When I returned, I worked at my dad's shop for 3 years, pursued a career in Interior decorating with another company for about 7-8 months, then returned to my dad's for a further 2 years. In 2011 I started my own business as an interior decorator. I did really well but had only done it for one year. My fears of failing had started to set in and preferred a job where I was certain of an income. I was not/am not bold enough to make it work. My choices were always safe because I didn't want to make any mistakes, just to realize later on that not wanting to make mistakes, and giving up, was my biggest mistake. It also frustrated me how non-decorators can pick out anything and put it together and make it work. I studied for it and when I did it, it looked like crap. So, my confidence was challenged often. I was 26 at the time. I don't regret not doing it anymore, but I am grateful for that year.
In 2012 I approached a company who had just started up, and where I am from, in this little town, finding a good job in a great company is very hard. So, I took the liberty of contacting the project manager who gave me a job two days later. I had done some work for them as a decorator the previous year, and he had done work with my dad for the previous company he had worked for, so at least I knew him a little bit.
Fast forward 6 and a half years, I am now between jobs. I have done a few courses, also encouraged by my dear friend (thanks Eugene!), of which some of them were graphic design courses. I love drawing and creating things. I'm very bad at it. And frustrations of not being able to jot down what I have in my mind is getting the better of me! So much to learn, so little patience!
But there is so much to chat about regarding the past 6 and a half years, so I think I will talk in more detail about that in future blogs :). This introduction was probably a bit longer than it needed to be. But thanks for taking the time to get to know a little about me.
Chat soon!