Dear Diary: I Am A Bit Of Breathless Now Again

It is very hard to control my fluid intake, one it is because it is hard to endure thirst compared to hunger because in hunger you sometimes have to feel the low sugar effects on your body before you are compelled to eat lest you will start to shake and tremble and possibly lose consciousness if you continue to fight it off.

But for thirst I would have to kill it by drinking water. A cold refreshing water and not those sweetened juices which sometimes make you seek more water. It is a big problem if you have a less frequent dialysis but since I have to be practical at this moment I have to make sure that I do not overdo it or I will have a more difficult breathing.

Now it seems that I have a slight laborious breathing and this will continue to worsen until I get to my dialysis which is tomorrow God-willing. But it is not that long of a wait although I should be getting a dialysis as soon as possible as it is affecting my blood pressure negatively.

I am suffering from 180/90 high blood pressure, it is because of my low capacity to load up excess fluids into my body unlike before when I have a normal body posture. So I am praying to God to still give me a little more time just for me to accomplish my goals for my family, my parents.