Dear Diary: I Just Sleep To Skip The Time Of Feeling Unwell

I just slept all morning today because I do not feel good already but after dialysis I will feel much better again hopefully. My way of avoiding the bad feeling is to just sleep it off and at least it works and I would just spend the time sleeping to skip the time to avoid the feeling of unwell.

I feel that I am not getting an adequate amount of dialysis because I am already unwell just before every dialysis session. It should not be the case but I do not want a thrice a week dialysis because it will just drain my health insurance because it only allocates 90 sessions per year.

Paying the dialysis sessions out-of-pocket is not a cheap thing to do that is why I am just enduring a twice a week sessions and sacrificing my well-being because of that.

Part of my being uncomfortable really is my Parathyroid medicine, it also causes me a great deal of misery but I do not want to stop taking it because I needed it but I have to make a certain kind of compromise like again, sacrificing my appetite just to save myself from body pain and the progression of my Leontiasis condition.

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Anyway, thankfully I could sleep when I want to even intermittently so in that way time passes by quickly until the hour of my dialysis. I am always saved by the bell with dialysis and it just glorious to be able to feel the cleaning action of the dialysis machine.

Maybe one day I will be better with peritoneal dialysis, in that way I would never have to go and get stuck with the dialysis centers, chasing time, preparing, and all that troubles although peritoneal dialysis is just a chore by itself but at least I get to have to cleaning action everyday.