Dear Diary: My Soul Is Saved Again After Dialysis

I have been not feeling well just only from Sunday and so by Monday I really wanted to get hooked at my dialysis already but my hands are tied because I could only afford twice a week dialysis because I also have to give a consideration about budgeting for my medicines which are also important.

Nobody also gives me money for my medicines much less for my dialysis because I have to pay some upfront cash before getting hooked up at dialysis. The hospital has gone strict so we have to pay an additional fee which are actually covered by the insurance but the hospital is charging us anyway.

My major issue really is my body pain as both my back and hip joint are aching and I am also like a boiled eggplant in weakness so I may have to use that wheelchair for the moment that I feel like a gelatin.

I just hope that I would die soon because it will be my rest and I will just let my siblings take care of my parents. I am dead anyway so I would not be worrying anymore to anything or anyone by then.

It is okay if it wasn't for this bone complications with pain and I could even probably go to work but the underlying complications is the factor that make sit hard for my medical situation. Now that I could not even walk and with progressing pain, life is not good to live with. So I am just trying to survive and trying to enjoy what I can still enjoy in this moment in my history.