Getting Relieved From Toxins And Extra Fluids IS My Happiness

I envy my nurses, they are young has a decent profession, has a good future undoubtedly, plus they are too damn happy. I was always trying to sleep everytime I would get hooked up for my dialysis but always interrupted of the laughter of my nurses.

Well it is better than them being grumpy and maybe hot-headed but when I look back at me still trying to pursue happiness if I was ever to achieve one because obviously with this kind of health issues that I am facing, one can even not try to pursue happiness but most probably would chose to end it all.

I just thank God that I am not depressed and my major complaint is what the things that currently ails me. Actually if there wasn't any pain, appetite-loss and breathlessness involved then things would have been acceptable. That is why if those factors didn't came to my life I would still be as happy as a bee with a tub of nectar.

Now my happiness is just to attain some form of ease from the things that makes me feel unwell and uncomfortable which is why I kept on going for my dialysis because I always gets excited with the freshness it gives me internally. So much so that I am able to eat well and good while hooked-up so I cherish every moment when I am at the dialysis center, not because of the company of other people but the saving grace of dialysis because for a moment I get to enjoy life.

What also makes me happy is I get to enjoy the love of my parents because while other people are out of the nest already I myself is still in the care of my parents which the cases should be the reverse already. So it would be very difficult for me if one or both of them would be gone because nothing could compare the love their bring, even their mere presence is just enough for me to feel nice deep inside.