You matter (Even if the dark convinces you you don't)

If you feel like letting go, I beg you to hold on.
Because we cannot say for sure what happens on the other side, we won't bring that stuff up.

Before you make your choice we need you to know,
you really do matter alot more then you realise....

We can point out that being alive is a rare gift (as we are still looking for life on OTHER planets and still have yet to find it...)

I hope you will see the emotional and mental manipulation taking place in this world and not allow those deceivers to manipulate you into missing your chance to heal others going through the similar stuff you have.

You see, this world was once run by dark souls and the perception of what matters has been obscured so deeply that often its a natural feeling to want to not be here facing much of it.

Who am I to say that?
I'm no one special, but a adult mom who remembers feeling that way at age 4.

I should point out,
I would never take that route these days, but as a small child I grew up around dysfunctional abusive people (family) who made me feel like my existance did not matter and that I was worthless.

It was difficult to believe life that life could ever get better, when they educated me on how to see life.

I was a awkward as they come, I was Fat and I didin't fit in AT ALL.
I was a geek in an age gaming or anime was not an acceptable passtime.
So I guess I want to say, is I have the expirience of being made to feel that way, over and over in life.

I don't know what you are going through personally, but no matter who you are, I need you to know there are so many people who really do care about you.
(Even if it does not feel that way)
There are many friends still to meet!

You are you for a reason.
You have something to offer planet earth, that no one else can offer.
Sometimes discovering what that is, is part of the mission.

Learning to see through the lens of history is the only way we can put it all in perspective.
Planet earth was DARK moving into LIGHT.

Once most people couldnt read or write unless they were among the educated wealthy few, or clergy. Religion controlled the freedoms of so many, and democracy (where we all have a voice in the governance of our country) was not a thing.

There was no fair trials, and people disliked by the system were "taken out" as we went through so many sad tales of war (for the profit of very few) and the missuse of religion to demonize people like... women who in many cases were called "witches" if they were intellectuals connected to the natural world...

We have since come so far out of those times.
We had no indoor plumbing, we had no electricity and people had to haul water and grow their own food instead of simply going to thr grocery store.

Lets say the game was on hard mode.
These days we have such a connected world, and unfortunately those same dark few want to use this connection to fuck with your mind and control your feelings.

Yes... this is actually part of their "profit" platform on social media these days.

Come talk, come game, and find a specialist to speak to if you feel the need to.

Some of us can't take the specialist route because it costs too much, or have developped a severe distrust towards many of the systems in society to care about US as INDIVIDUALS and are not just pretending to care about us for $$$.

Feelings are such a not understood thing on this planet, and with so much free time compared to those olden days to expirience them its part of our evolution to get to better understand them and why they exist as they do.

They are a guidance system, connected to something very special.

A reminder we are made of stars, and that we are part of the greatest expirience that is such a rare phenominon: LIFE is so difficult to find, let alone sentient life.

Life that can dream, discover and choose to create instead of harm.

We are connected so deeply to our planet.
More then we realise in many cases.

But lets focus on you:
Who are you?
What do you live to do?
What makes you truly HAPPY?

It can be one, or many things.
Take some time to focus on you and heal through this feeling and ask ourselves "What is it that makes us feel like this?"

Only then can we be authentic and heal the darkness that still remains within us or others around us.

You are loved, even if it might not feel that way in depression mode.

Some find healing in faith, and others are skeptic and need logic before accepting faith.

Thats fine, I too was one of those people...

Maybe,
life is a lot like the matrix, and before the computers take over we're waking up to make it better.