awesomianist's instagram Feed : 2018/12/04 18:21:38
I can feel the depression coming.. Is it because of a compromised immune system? I don't know, it's been some time since I feel this feeling and frankly I don't like it. Maybe I should listen to more Billie Eilish or maybe I should stop.
All the sudden I got thinking about life and where I am and the point of living and you know that feeling when you realised you're just a human out of 7.6 Billion? All living on a rock floating around a star floating in a group of stars floating amongst other group of stars.. Then you realize you don't actually matter in the grand scheme of the universe.. And then you feel like crap emotionally.
I need this to stop, but I can't stop ignoring this existential crisis. I need to stop eating ice cream too.
Photo of a sunset I took with my crappy OPX phone in my hometown over the South China Sea.
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Hey man, that's tough battling with a compromised immune system, and while you don't know me, don't really like me, and cannot see my POV, when I see a heartfelt post such as this the 1/7.6 billion in me feels like at least saying something.
Not trying to be your guru or offer any deep insights to life bro, just simply saying you're not alone, you're not an isolated case, and that you and your perceptions matter more than you could ever know.
Enjoy the ice cream, savour the flavours both bitter and sweet in this life. All the best to you in regards to your health and well being.
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So many people tell me that, yet never seem to get through my thick skull. Thanks for the advice tho, you're legit.
But I'm still stopping that ice cream thing, it's been fucking my insulin up to the point I can't even get sugar high off a quarter tub.
I'm definitely a sugar junky, it's what I refer to as "first dope" It's absolutely the equivalent of drugs to a developing brain and CNS, we are hardwired as is by our serotonin and dopamine rewards system, so sugar in excess will definitely have an impact on our base drives over time. I'm sure genetics plays a role as well, but you must listen to your body and find a balance.
And yes man, do try to listen to all those that tell you how important you are and stand nothing to gain from building you up. Depression and addiction go hand and hand or maybe hand to mouth is more accurate here haha, but nevertheless IMHO they both stem from feeling a lack of connection. This leads to feeling isolated and then you have a very vicious cycle.
Keep your head up @awesomianist you never know what u might be missing out on otherwise.
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