Why I May Not Get Better And Why That's OK

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Hey guys!

So I am unfortunately sad to report that I am going through yet another MS relapse. That is two in less than six weeks, and three in less than six months. Considering most patients only experience a few relapses in their lifetime, I think it's safe to say that things are rapidly progressing, and not in a good way.

I made this video because I didn't want to. I have been sad today, and the last thing I wanted to do was talk about it. But, then I remembered that there are people out there like me, and you may not have a disease, or anything like that, but you may have some sort of obstacle in your life that people don't understand.

It's easy for people to judge you, and just assume that if you are doing everything they're doing or doing everything "the right way" that the outcome should be the same for you as everyone else. The reality is though, that that couldn't be more false. Just because you follow "Rich Dad, Poor Dad" mentality, doesn't mean you'll be rich, it could mean you're poor. You could follow every facet of advice imaginable and it may not make a lick of difference.

I have been, to the best of my ability, doing what I knew in my heart was right with my MS. I naturally managed it for years without problems, and then everything started to fall apart at the seams, and now I am doing exactly what my doctors are telling me to do, and I am getting worse.

I don't attribute this decline to anything specific, I think it's just the natural course that my disease is taking, but I am fatigued by people telling me if I just do "x" I will be better. People would tell my mother that too when she was diagnosed with ovarian cancer.

FYI apple cider vinegar does not cure cancer. If you want to peddle that bullshit, give yourself cancer first, and then see if it works.

But I hear everything from "You just need to exercise more" to "Isn't there a special diet for MS?"

No. Exercise and diet don't do shit. I do both and funnily enough, my body is still attacking itself and is daily stripping my myelin sheath off of all of my nerves!

It's the worst when it comes to my family though. I felt pressured to go on the shots, mainly because of them. I was tired of hearing that I wasn't doing everything I could, and therefore couldn't complain about the outcome. Well, that didn't do any good in the end, as now that I am still relapsing regardless of my medication, now the dialogue has changed from "you aren't doing enough" to "you waited too long".

I can't win and I have never been more frustrated.

Anyway, I shared this with you guys in case anyone can relate.

I hope you guys are having a magnificent Monday!

Catch ya later!

• Beth

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