Let Them Go

Today as I was trying to look for a package that was supposedly delivered last week, I was getting into fits of rage internally. I am just so mad as to why people say they will do things then they won't. Failing to keep your word is probably the most annoying thing. Some people have a total disrespect for your time. I'm sure there are people like this anywhere in the world, but I am clearly seeing this unreliable type more widespread here. And I totally understand why. Some people have allowed themselves to be disrespected and some have gotten used to disrespecting others. Though it seems that's just how the world works in general, and it sucks.

They say that anything you chase in life goes away. If you chase the money and make it your whole goal in life, it will either go away or give you long-term dissatisfaction. If you chase people, the more they will feel more important about themselves. Sometimes I think we are just here to make others feel significant. What if I just stopped chasing this important package I have ordered a few weeks ago. I'll just wait and see whatever happens. It seems that as people see the more you need them, the more they feel better. They feed into the whole ego-trip while destroying you in the process.

Frogs will pull down others frogs trying to escape a pot of boiling water. There are those who will resent your progress and self-improvement because they don't want to be alone in the pot of boiling water. Perhaps they think that your improvement exposes their own shortcomings. Perhaps they are just threatened by the idea of change. And there are those who just don't get it. They will do everything to get your attention to the point of ruining your life. Some just don't get that you don't want them anymore. No more. Nada mas!

I have stopped chasing these people. It is time to mark some people as spam in the inbox of my life. It is time to 'block or delete' them on social media and mute them on Steemit. You have the choice to be liberated from people who are consciously and unconsciously sabotaging your happiness and growth. Even though they will still do anything to make you realize that you are unhappy because they are not in your life anymore, you can choose to free yourself.

It was hard at first because I was scared to be left with a few friends. There are those who will do anything to hinder your self-improvement. They make you feel like they are the ones you need and manipulate you into thinking that you are shit without them. They try to control you and feed into your vulnerability through subtle manipulation posing as 'reaching out'. They will get in and out of your life. It's hard to call them out because of their narcissism. They will do everything to make you feel worse by projecting their own insecurities upon you. They also think they are always right. They rarely admit that they've messed up, miscalculated or misspoken. They love to be the victims. When the world is perpetually against them, their actions and choices can't possibly be responsible, "it's just the way things are".

I think 'toxic people' is the term for these classic signs. People can be bad when being themselves but it does not mean they are toxic. True toxicity is the kind that infects and takes over your life. The kind that manipulates you. Most people have become true toxic due to some unfortunate events in their lives, insecurities, childhood or relationship trauma. Though it is not fair to abandon them, sometimes it's just best to set boundaries. And to be aware when you're getting sucked into their misery and negativity just so you don't lose yourself in the process.

I've had the type in my life, mostly exes and friends. The thing about me is that I seem to be attracted to this type of people for I am cynical as hell. I am not washing my hands clean as I have my own insecurities and toxicity too. I'm not better. I might even take some of the same toxic qualities I resent in others - something that happens even to the best people out there. Toxic people have a peculiar way of making you toxic yourself. Now I realized that I no longer need those who will weigh me down further and make me the worst version of myself. Cutting toxic people out of my life can blow up in my face. They will come back again and again even after you tell them to go away. You will even have to tell them several times before they finally do. Distancing myself would be a gradual process. And there are cases that you don't have to do anything at all. Inaction is sometimes the best reaction. Let them make the change in themselves and just focus on yourself. Sometimes you don’t owe anyone an explanation, just do what's the best for you. In the end, this is my life, I get to say who I want to be inside my circle.