No one will know what you really want except yourself

The first year when I started working, whenever it is the weekend or the end of the holiday, the night before working day, I always felt a heavy feeling of melancholy.

Feel sad why the holiday is so short, haven’t relaxed and played enough, then suddenly it’s the end already; Worry about the work tomorrow, worry about the work will stress me out.

Even more exasperating is that I cannot make any changes in this state, only can prepare, and then go to sleep with worry, waiting for the next morning alarm, then immediately got up into work life.

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For a long time, when I was sitting at my desk in front of a pile of work, when I racked my brains to deal with the requested content again and again, I was full of melancholy, I even wanted to put everything down, and then turn around and straight to the outside good weather and time, to enjoy the life that I enjoyed.

Yes, everyone thinks they can walk in all direction, the life should include travel, albums, and food.
But in reality, there is really a few of us that make a living by doing what they love.

In an one-foot-wide office, in a small bedroom with less than 12 square feet; walking on the street, seeing the indifference of the happy pedestrians everywhere, or even catching up with the rush hour, being squeezed in a bad breath; you really just want to get rid of this situation at the moment, just want to quickly solve the hunger, then make up for a sleep.

Lying in bed and look at the phone, over and over again looking at friends’ social media, just like waiting for the message, even though you know the sound of message alert will not ring.

You look at other people's wonderful life, thinking of the place you once thought in the past, all you can do is only press on like button on the post.

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Have you ever thought about what life you really want, but gradually lost in the daily life of the trivial, even if not lost, you also found some ideas and dreams, but it is an unreachable dream in the short term.

You're tired of living; you're wasting your time at work, you're lost or panicked at a certain point in each day, a little confused, and a little discouraged.

What exactly do you want?
You ask yourself quietly.

But there is still no answer.

You still remember when someone asked you the happiest thing in your childhood, you can answer loudly and happily.
You remembered how brave and cheerful the youth was.

But the more you grew up; you need to face all the joys and sorrows alone, you slowly become angel that losing their wings, unexpectedly do not know the thing you like in which direction.

But at this time, you are surrounded by someone who urges you to fall in love, marry and have children.

But a lot of things happened for a reason, you can only choose to bless, but you really can’t do anything.

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Every day, you live your life with a variety of mood, you keep seeing more interesting people live, you eat alone, go shopping alone, or even did not speak a word for a long time.

You may even suspect that the world is fake because you do not know that the drift of life, is it a duplicate of bug and you lost inside. Have no direction, but can’t retreat, that a breath between, always feel a bit oppressed.

However, no one can really help you, because other than yourself, no one will understand what you really want, whether it is life, emotion, or this repeated life.

Yes, you have to ask yourself, you have to find the tools, you need to learn to smoothen the line in your heart, don't be confused, don't be perturbed.

You can be someone who doesn't understand anything at work, but you have to know that what you get from a job, is not only just salary, and more importantly, a cumulative ability and vision.

You can be alone, and there is no one around you, but you must know, the feeling of you really want something.

Yes, it's easy to choose the right life, and it's not easy to live a reconciliation with yourself.

Fortunately, we never give up; Fortunately, we know how to be ourselves.

So, ask yourself, is this what you want?

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