Not Sure What This Is

in #not5 years ago

A feeling of well being
Comes over me
It's time to remember
What it means to be free

Torn asunder
This was my blunder
I refuse to live like
I'm already under
The ground
It's time to rebound
You've got something to say?
Shhh! Don't make a sound

I can see the beauty
In life and all around me
It will never unfold perfectly
But I must strive for serenity

Even when I battle anxiety
Even when people are eyeing me
I resist silently
And try not to react violently

Unless I had a few too many
And went and spent my last penny
Live and learn or don't
You want me to sympathize I won't
You want pity and to perpetuate negativity
You claim you just want empathy
You're pretending see
And that's OK
But you do not plan my day

I need to break away
Mentally, spiritually, and ultimately physically
I don't live in a bad place
But there's places I'd rather be
There's still so much more to see

I'll never be perfect
I may never be right
And I'll never make you happy
Your expectations I must sever
Or I'm the one who feels crappy

It's not so serious
At times I'm delirious
You're giving in to fear in us
And I could give a flying fuck

I know indeed I am part of the problem
I don't see one person try to solve them
They are content when the government robs them
In the end we get what we deserve
I'm not so sure what has me so deterred

I'm sick of focusing on that which has fallen
Why don't we ever try to build it back up
Or higher
Souls on fire
They do inquire

I can't keep harboring evil feelings within
It's too much baggage
Perhaps it is true that I am living in sin
I need to flip my perspective still if I'm ever going to win
I feel like I've met myself half way and I feel so positive now
But things change with the flip of a switch and I still don't understand how

In conclusion my delusions will not heal you
Demons in my head they cause my regret indeed they will steal you
From out of your world
And jettison you from mine

This doesn't even sound quite right
Who is that causes my plight?
Me?
Most certainly!

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