Speaking out

My culture had always been very judgmental with people who seeks counseling for whatever issues they are having. As a result, a lot of us gets passive aggressive, accept abuse, even defend them by saying that I deserve it and, gets stressed, depressed and in severe cases, loses their sanity.

It has something to do perhaps with our view religious view that, we wanted to suffer as much as our god suffered. It might have been because it had been deeply ingrained in us that, speaking our private affairs to a non family member is akin to besmirching the family honor. It might even be that, everyone else just tolerates the whole abuse because, that's what we're for- to suffer.

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You guys knew that for quite awhile now, I had been struggling to get a grip over my stresses and anxieties in my life. And, I did scheduled an online counselling because, I do want to speak to someone who can listen to me in a non judgmental and supportive way. I feel that speaking with anyone here who is directly involved in my life about my concerns now will eventually complicate the issue so, I opted for that free option to speak to a counselor

I am not going to disclose the whole hour that I had been speaking to this person but what I just wanted to say is that, sometimes, the wisest thing to do is speaking out. Not to anyone who you cannot trust but to someone who could be an outsider. That was how I felt the whole day.

I got derailed because my body seems to be releasing all the tensions in it and, I spent majority of the time walking- to release the stress, sleeping and doing things which I enjoyed doing. And, now that I am writing this, I just feel happy, whole, at peace and very much validated. I feel that whatever I felt were finally put to rest and, I am ready to move on.

Its amazing what a few, short conversations could do in me but, it just sort of started healing me. Anyway, I'll be signing off and catching over my school work!