Do I make you thorny, baby?

Steem you are a thorn in my side yet, I enjoy the pain a little too. I seem to be a bit of a masochist. When I think of all the time, energy and thought I put into this place it makes we laugh a little, while wincing in pain. I think this is a good sign...I think.

I was saying the other day how I didn't really have any interest in things as a child and never dreamed of becoming something but, I have somehow become a kind of writer of sorts. I say kind of writer because what is a blogger? I don't really consider myself a blogger anyway yet, this does seem to be what I am doing here quite a lot.

I actually like having some of the scam present too, I like watching how people behave and how there is often a disconnect between what they say and how they act. There are often large discrepancies in how the community can view people too. The funny thing here is that there are people living multiple lives. Some have very public accounts that they boast community action on while supporting numerous alts with less than community behavior? Which one are they, the public figure or the 'private'?

I tend to think the person is the one they are when they feel no one is watching. They are the closed door personality because it is when there is no reason for a mask that people can act freely, lose their inhibitions and release social responsibility. They feel they act invisibly here because they think there is little linking the public persona to the private. What I have found here though is that no much happens when their bubble hits a thorn and bursts, the community largely ignore it.

My assumption is that there is a Those in glass houses agreement, where so many people are running background scams of one sort or another that if they throw their arms up or speak out too heavily, they feel the spotlight will shine their way and their bubbles will risk the points of thorns.

I find all of it quite interesting and very similar to some other people I have had both the pleasure and displeasure of observing from close range, politicians. There is of course going to be differences between what is public and what is private but, how different is acceptable and how fearful should someone be if private became public?

For me, I enjoy writing here, I enjoy being able to explore different topics and sides of myself and try, evaluate and renegotiate my positions. In the last year, as terrible as some of this has felt at times, I have enjoyed it immensely. At times, I think I take it too seriously but I also think that I must as the future opportunity is too large for too many people to just waste it and treat it like it doesn't matter.

These photos are from the garden outside of my building today.

Taraz
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