SAM - I found a piano to play with

My relationship with the piano have been a hete-love relationship since ever. My dad wanted so bad to study music when he was young, but for many reasons, he did not finish his studies, due to this, since I was born he wanted to fulfill that dream through me, so just when I reached the minimun age (3 years old) he enrolled me in piano lessons.

For many years I felt frustation, because I was studying so hard just to fulfill my father's spectations, besides, I was so little when he decided my future as a musician that, I felt he didn't let me find my own way in life... But at the same time I liked to play... I enjoyed it in some way, so I continued until I graduated as a piano teacher.

Despite all this, now, I'm grateful with life and with my dad because now music is just part of me. Also, during my musical studies I have met so many wonderful people that I wouldn't met if things had not been that way.

After I did my grade recital I was suffering so much ansiety I stopped playing the piano for a long time. Let me explain this, the grade recital is like the final exam to get graduated, it consist in playing up to 45 minutes of music in, my case 7 long music pieces, this most include a piece of each musical period (baroque, classical, romatic, contemporary) of memory (without musicsheets), in front of a lot of people. The spectations of my teachers, the judges (important musicians of my city, some of wich knew me since I little), my family and the public in general were pretty high.It was a lot of pressure to me. The judges qualified me with 20/20 points so, I graduated with honors. But I wanted a pause.

After all that I moved to another country, and I didn't bring a piano with me. I'm in a hole new beginning here, so will have to wait a little to buy my own piano. I want to do it, because although I have stumbled a lot along the way, as I said, want ir or not, music is a part of me, I fell it. I missed so much playing... Now I just found out a neighbor has an old piano in her house, and she invited me to go there and play whenever I want. I'm grateful with her, I really needed to move my fingers!

It's sunday today, but I wanted to publish this post for the #sam-saturday challenge by @bluemoon, cause it's the right place to share how I spent my saturday and express a part of myself. Sorry for being late!