Steemvivor...

in #steem6 years ago (edited)

        


I can't sleep, it is a cool summer night and we are experiencing a late Spring.   The air is dark, still and humid, and the night surprisingly quiet.  My brain, restless.  My mood a bit dark.

The lawn needs to be mowed and a million other things that could be done are dancing around my mind.  Except, it is dark outside and cool in the house.  I don't want to leave the comfort and warmth of my chair.

Since I can't mow, I wonder what productive thing can I do to stop my brain from rambling?  

Writing a SteemIt post, comes to mind.   Earlier today, I was thinking I need a Steem Vacation as I have been feeling triggered by fighting, complaining and my own grumpy mood on SteemIt.

So and so is raping the reward pool.. and someone else is plagiarising and someone else upvoted a low quality post.  Bob hates bid bots, and Mary hates Haejin, Kenny is mad that Billy didn't put more effort into Quality Content.  It is all frustrating to me right now.  It is feeling stale and for the first time, I question continuing to power up.  

Usually these little conflicts do not bother me and often I even find the blockchain battles interesting, so why is it all bugging me right now?  For the last couple of weeks I've been progressively annoyed.  My annoyance peaked a bit with people attacking dMania and Zombee being too sensitive to handle it. Combine that with some undeserved personal attacks on people I know are investing and working in the Steem Economy, pushing me closer to the edge.   If you didn't watch the whole episode regarding dMania, when someone finally did the math any cheating was minimal and not nearly as clear cut as was originally stated.  Yet, some hate memes.  Whatever.    

Meanwhile, witnesses I respect are burning the reward pool (only there is no burning happening)  and still others are profiting off of pure drama, upvoting only themselves and tearing down others.  One of our top 20 witnesses came into chat the other day and told everyone he is selling his Steem to buy EOS.    I feel like the people who complain are winning.  These people are more harmful than the cheaters, because they influence new users and spread dis-ease.  They tear down success with envy and a lack of understanding that we can handle many different types of content on the site.  They pretend they have the moral high ground and are only upset because they want to help others.

Early this morning an app developer whose name literally means he is a threat to virgins, came into chat and preaches the moral high ground?  That's funny stuff right there.  Yet, at the time, frustrating and adding to the sense that things are not going well.  

Dis-Ease, there it is.

Suddenly, I remember that success is often little more than surviving the negative.  It is always created and rarely comes without sacrifice, fear and self doubt.  Most things that are successful have bleak times, competition and doubters.  The main thing about success, is not to quit.  

With all the hype around EOS and their potential projects, we already have something that works and also is imperfect.  It is easy to idolize that new shiny project when you know what their mission is, but haven't yet experienced it's problems.  It is harder to face the current issues and work through them.  

I realize that although we will experience ups and downs we are building an economy here, not just a website for Authors.  While that drives some crazy, it is what I have expected and predicted. It is what I am investing in.   We are doing it in an awkward style that I am not used to, but everywhere I look I see creative and intelligent people who are earning Steem, through a variety of avenues.  They can save Steem, transfer it and even use it to buy EOS.  No matter what else is going on, it is working, over all it is growing, distribution is slowly changing and although their voices might seem quieter there are more people experiencing success than those who are complaining.  I need to look for the good and praise it.  (A concept often voiced by @roundhere)

I can't sleep, it is a cool summer night and we are experiencing a late Spring.   The air is dark, still and humid, and the night surprisingly quiet.  My brain, restless.  My mood a bit dark.

Moods come and go, but experience and knowledge do not change.  Under my mood, I am confident.  I'm here and it is often darkest before the dawn.

@whatup


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After reading your post I am once again hit with the thought that you are the voice of reason on this platform. Mood aside, you keep this titanic sized ship floating through a shitstorm of icebergs.

The way I see it is you have here on steemit three types of people, disregarding those inactive or silent ones....winners, whiners and wieners. So pick a team and jump on it.

So and so is raping the reward pool.. and someone else is plagiarising and someone else upvoted a low quality post. Bob hates bid bots, and Mary hates Haejin, Kenny is mad that Billy didn't put more effort into Quality Content.

Lol. A stage of drama of what is and what is not

So and so is raping the reward pool.. and someone else is plagiarising and someone else upvoted a low quality post. Bob hates bid bots, and Mary hates Haejin, Kenny is mad that Billy didn't put more effort into Quality Content.

This is what im investing in as well, a devil i know is better than an angel i dont know, EOS is fine, but i believe in steemit and you are not alone, i hope your mood brightens up and i can feel your energy again....we will be fine

Great, i liked how you started, same way you ended it, and it's really shows your words, as you said, no matter what my mood is, i am confident. And the great aspect you highlighted is Dis-ease, with this word you showed two aspect, firstly, viral information and secondly creating an environment where newbies lack ease of work. Thanks for sharing your thoughts with us and wishing you an great day. Stay blessed. 🙂

Well look like someone Wants to take an early vacation off steemit, well I think you won't cause you love to love here.
As for Haejin and the zombee stuff and Bernie, I think the system knows about it, and we can only speak, the system decides what to do anyways

The whole of Steem is just a replica of what life is all about. There are sure ups and downs, people loving and people hating, people gaining and people losing. I also think you need to take a vacation though but doesnt mean you should stop steeming #smiles

"So and so is raping the reward pool.. and someone else is plagiarising and someone else upvoted a low quality post. Bob hates bid bots, and Mary hates Haejin, Kenny is mad that Billy didn't put more effort into Quality Content. It is all frustrating to me right now. "

I hear you. I find the antidote to this is focusing on creating content. Ignore all of the noise and add value.

I know that there is a lot of negativity going on all around Steemit but that is time to show that we wont give up.There will always be doubts,crisis and anger on the way to success.You are one of the first Steemit authors I discovered and I was always amazed by your rational state on many occasion.Just remind yourself what you did in the past :"I just kept posting" :)
Take your time if feel that you really need that but don't even think about leaving us for long.We need people like you.People who will stay calm and help in building healthy community by helping people to create rational view on the situation.Anyway as I said some time ago I totally agree with statement that arguing and whining all the time can be more devastating than actual "sins".However not letting bad stuff to happen is also part of our path to victory(I made post about upcoming threat for our community,I would love to see your opinion about that.If you do not wish me to "advertise" in your comment section just let me know and I will instantly remove this part of the comment.I just don't know any other way of contacting You)Have a great day and just keep posting :)

This was absolutely beautiful to read and reflect on! Thank you for always sharing your honest truth. I enjoyed reading this.

One of our top 20 witnesses came into chat the other day and told everyone he is selling his Steem to buy EOS.

You see so many people are just in some position not because they are worth it , but because they are opportune to . I don’t ever expect a witness who should believe and stick with steem cause understanding the work of witnesses. I don’t expect such from a witness

The situations are frustrating and of course annoying, Only few sees and appreciate good contents. But it’d bet better I believe. Thanks for bringing up this important discussion. You’re much appreciated.

You are absolutely right sir, this life itself is a battle field talk less of just platform, there is nothing how this will stop happening, we just have to remain positive and look toward future.

You shouldnt take vacation sir since you are actually making a bread for this platform and relatively you are more experience than myself, you are the reason some up is still focused because we see your article almost everyday. There are bad people, that is not a lie, like you said some people still make ends meet and get a desirable benefits right from this platform. If people leave some would surely join and come on bound. Have a rethink sir. Keep the good work flowing man

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