Dear Diary: It Is A Good Thing For Me To Eat When Hungry And Not It Is Just A Time For It

I am just eating basically twice a day but I am having some raisins in between because of my "bitter mouth'problem. For my condition of having an appetite problem I just wanted my body to long for some food so that at least I could get the natural ability to eat my food.

Having a hot meal is what I also want because eating a cold meal isn't making the food as appetizing. I just wished that I have a variety of meals to eat but what I want is not what I get most of the time and I only have a limited choices for making my eating habit to get an improvement.

I tried to eat while sitting up today because I can sit without much discomfort lately but I found it hard to make my food stay inside my mouth so I have to pull my head back with my mouth to face up so that my food won't spill out from my mouth. But I am happy to know that I could eat such things like gruel or cereals in a bowl while sitting up now at least it makes me feel normal.

But no, I won't eat along with people lest they would turn their head on me and whisper to each other with looks and smiles and all that signs that a sensitive and vigilant person can perceive. My focus is just on my welfare and on how I could improve myself more.

There is still my plan for a surgical intervention in my mouth feature, not on my appearance because I can learn to live with this lion-like appearance of mine, heck I can maybe earn some money with just a little make-up of prosthetic fangs I can charge people to pay me for a selfie with a "Lion-man" but I couldn't care less. What I wanted is just to eat normally with a good appetite, I hope that God wills it for me.