Last legs and what if

The buzz of the propeller is near my head and I imagine it coming free and slicing through the plane like it would in a Sylvester Stallone movie... But, it'd be okay, right?

I am writing this on the flight back to my home city which is only a 30 minute flight from Helsinki. It will not make it in by midnight and I am unsure if @appics will count as a Steem post which means, this might be the first day in almost 2 years where I didn't get a post in for the day. That'd be something.

I think that considering I am pretty analogue in a digital world, the numbers are pretty good. Since I can't actually check them since I don't have a connection, if I remember correctly I have cast something like 50,000 votes over my Steem journey which is pretty high considering I don't autovote at all.

I remember someone saying what is the big deal about being a manual curator and the answer is, nothing. But, it is something like a point of process where a manual voter is at least more likely to have seen and read the content voted, it is an acknowledgement of effort. Of course, there is nothing wrong with autovote get either, especially if one thinks through who they are supporting and why.

I like the why of things yet, I love the what ifs. I would say that it is a big reason I enjoy my time on Steem so much as while there is a lot of uncertainty, there is a huge amount of flexibility and room to move now and develop further in the future. The what ifs of Steem are near endless and I enjoy hypothesising where things may lead in the future, even if it is a long way away or, never actually arrives.

The timeframes people hold for results is generally shorter than what is actually required to get those results and impatience leads to mistakes. I was saying to my wife today that while I am training some pretty important clients, even though I am very green, if anything goes wrong at this stage, I am screwed.

I don't mind that situation as I take the approach of, do my best and what comes, comes. This way, regardless of other's judgements, I am at peace with myself knowing I did what I could with what I had at the time. The feedback I get means that next time, I will have more available than last which increases my chances of success of I use the information to improve my process.

Today's session was difficult and I am not going to know how it really went from the client's perspective until in the office tomorrow. While it was far from perfect, I did my best however and that matters, at least to me.

The plane is descending so it won't be long til on the ground where hopefully I will be able to get hold of a taxi. It is a 30 minute drive to my place from the airport too which means I should get home around 115 in the morning, enough time for a shower, 5 hours of sleep and back up for work.

While it is a hectic week and for quite a while now, a pretty full on life, there are an increasing number of what if possibilities creeping in through the work I do and the various processes.

I might feel on my last legs tonight but, what if tomorrow...

Landed.

Taraz
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_{(posted from phone)}