_{Everyone seems to be using flowers, so i stole this from google}

What are my wishes... I am still sore from all have lost lately, income, health, a beautiful family, wealth because of the divorce, and the general will to keep dreaming a better world is possible.

I have lost so much that not having anything left to loose I'm high risk trading, I'm over-speeding in my motorbike, I'm drinking too much

And in general I don't give a shit anymore.

There was some hope my country would recover its freedom and my countryman would stop starving or queuing endlessly to avoid that.

There was the hope of new found love (twice) which resulted in more disappointment, one ended up being a married gal and the other one just one day disappeared cutting all links.

Well my wishes...

1.- Go back in time and never being sucked up here

Yes even thou today the only link with sanity i keep is the blog and the crumbles of my dream project i really want to forget 2017 and 2018. To not have lived them at all.

2.- That STEEM was the place its creator dreamed to be.

Yes the White Paper (outdated like hell now) promises a place that can be shaped by effort and dedication, the reality is that the person who dreamed that ended up going away because his dream turned into out nightmare.

That friends were real supportive friendships, not opportunistic cut throat alliances

Well I have wasted two wishes, wishing the impossible, according to quantum physics if we ever manage time travel, it will always be forwards, never backwards unless the entanglement allows for a jump to a part of the multiverse where time moves slower and them things have not happened yet and them with the past experience a proper future can be shaped and mistakes avoided.

So lets try to make the 3rd and last one an achievable goal.

3.- I WISH to have the will and the forces to overcome this depression that sinks me into despair

To recover the will and the drive to move my ass, to find the goal, to stop waiting for others to do their part so i can move forward.

My countryman might start at last showing signs of cohesion and trust, to work together towards a common goal be it in the platform be it in real life, so we can finally be the citizens that deserve, the future and the country we dream on

What i am waiting for you might ask:

• Right now I have no passport, the Venezuelan one is expired and I can't manage to get it done I am waiting since November for a prolongation that everyone is receiving in 2 to 3 weeks yet mine is nowhere to be see,.

• I asked for the French Nationality in hopes it comes trough before the judge pronounces the divorce and i loose the right to have it (I started this in February 2018 and only managed to get all the paperwork required in January 2019) I have in front of me 2 to 3 months waiting for the answer and the exam to see if i understand republican democracy...

Unless any of those two unravels I cannot go back to my hummungus money making job in Oil & Gas industry.

Having a passport also means I might be able to travel and finally meet those broken love promise girls, even who know, meet their replacement... I don't know.

Yet if I have the passport I still need to find a job back there after 2 years absence, I have been shyly knocking doors because i am scared of something really happening and not having the travel document to be able to do it. So it is a vicious circle.

Other thing I am awaiting for is the money I put for my half million euros house, I don't want my children growing in a impersonal french development so I agreed to recover just half of what is legally due to me so my wife can keep the house, i would have loved to just leave them the house and start over, but that money I put there was my retirement plan, the fruits of 25 years of hard work in shitty countries teaching how to produce oil and not kill yourself or destroy the environment in the process. So I need to get some of it back. But the exwife is punishing me by moving at the speed of lawyers, when an easy solution would be to early take a loan and have me signing an IOU so I can move alone and start over again.

In the mean time I have an interview to work as a Second de Cuisine in a beach restaurant, no high flying, simple no bullshit food, I will go Tuesday to check them out and have a chat with the owner and see if we can reach an agreement.

It is a place 1:30 hours from my town and they propose lodging as part of the deal, so it will be a healthy change from living in my half million garage / office and being depressed as I see my family trough the window. I need to put some distance so I can really break free from the weight of the past.

I knew the moment had arrived for killing the past and coming back to life

Well the third wish is the one that matters.

Thank you @Guiltyparties for this.

Thanks to @poeticsnake that i learnt about this chalenge.

I feel better now, I think that i am ready to leave behind the past and maybe start moving again.

Tagging:

@betamusic , @thebugiq , @matuca , @theycallmedan , @sircorck , @pgarcgo , @dresden

"Plan the trade and trade the plan".

What do you think?

Over the long term I need to be Bullish on STEEM hopefully I will be able to put more SP on my account once i finish this operation.

(Sadly i sold all my steem @ 8140, because the TA indicated a retracement to 7600, so i need a healthy retracement down there to buy it back and return powerful, then it can go to the moon, to the CN tower level, to the Clouds... But I think we will see it @ 16000 and even 20000 before that happens.)

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