Dear Diary: I Am Now Scared About My Health Situation

in #ulog6 years ago

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When joint pains, stiffness, and weakness goes together nothing is more scarier and horrifying. It is what I am feeling with my body right now and I am worried because it seems that my efforts are not paying as I would expect it to be. I am just concentrating not to fall down while walking because certainly I will topple over with some slight shove by a child perhaps. That is why I am staying at my bed and only would get out at toilet and bath time, when I sit at the lounge, and when going out for my dialysis.

My weakness is profound so that worries me because what I wanted is to be at least mobile even around the house. I can't afford to be totally invalid because of my aging parents. What if what happens to them? But nothing that I could do but to just cling to hope or what I perceive to be some hope. I am just likening myself to that of a fish in a polluted lake, there is water but barely sustaining my existence.

There is a saying that nothing is forever, here on earth we can extend our lives like in my case but we can never be around forever. What we can just do is to make each other's lives easier because it is hard to live in this life as we are always in a constant battle to survive it. In this lifetime we are just tested so we could get the chance to be in a better place free from the scalding heat of the sun, no more fear, worries, grief, sorrows, and sadness.

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Don't give up. I know you have a lot of fight left in you. Have you looked into a mobility aid? I know a while ago you were looking at an electric scooter, but what about something as simple as a walker? I think it will really help.

@lizzyib it is complicate because I have an issue of a marked weakness and this hip joint pain bothers me as well. I also thought of having an electric wheelchair but sitting on it is another issue since I am very uncomfortable sitting up too.

I know...I'm just worried about a fall even on the trips to the bathroom. 😕

I am very sad to see this situation. I have always been seeing you. I have always been living a very sick life. I have always prayed for you. You should be quick to recover. You should be completely healthy again and come back to all our friends. I want to know how ill the sick person can actually give me, I understand that I now own myself If you are sick, you do not like anything on earth if you are sick. I do not feel bad for you all the time. I think you are a good friend of good and I have seen you for a long time that you are sick, I always pray for you. You will come back again and again, all of us will come back again

We all have a mission of life, and it is sad to ask ourselves: what is my mission? I deserve this suffering? nevertheless I pass the page and I remember the Calvary of Jesus, I gather strength and I keep going, since God does not put burdens on our backs that we can not bear, encourage friend, all will be well, receive a hug @cryptopie

I always pray for you to heal.

In this lifetime we are just tested so we could get the chance to be in a better place free from the scalding heat of the sun, no more fear, worries, grief, sorrows, and sadness...yes you so right but I still believe you will still get back on your feet someday , an you would enjoy all this life have to offer ..just keep praying and continue staying positive ...there is a better tomorrow ..
Stay healthy stay safe.

strength and a lot of faith to make you feel good

Do not get discouraged friend .. Keep fighting, you are too strong .. Strength and faith

It must be very frustrating for what you are going through. Strength my dear friend

Will always here for you @crytopie will never stop praying for you,God bless brother.

Here we are with you, do not be discouraged, I know you can keep improving. Good things will come when you least expect it.

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