ULOGGING MY 2nd DAY: THE PERSON WITHIN THE MIRROR (YOU'RE WHO YOU WANT THE WORLD TO SEE)
I woke up today with a dream about the future, and everytime I get reminded of the future, it makes me feel really really uncomfortable, in Africa we're always conscious about dreams, because we feel they're omens, that's really meant warm or inform us.
One part that has always haunted me, was leaving school because I didn't have money to continue my tutitions, that wasn't just the point, sometimes I look at things linearly and wonder, how I'm I going to pull these off, how I'm I going to even get a job after finishing school? I'm I good enough for him? or for her? How can I raise a family, when I don't know what it feels like to have a family?
Having my father die at 19 was very traumatic and since his death, I've done things I would not do on a normal day, like buying a casket, selecting a dead body in the morgue to ascertain which one is your father? for a 19 year old, I had pulled it off, and at 20 I took care of mother who was sufferings from stroke, she was completely unable to even stand up from bed, but I nursed her for 2 years back to health.**
WHO ARE YOU STARING AT?
I was still staring at the mirror, I didn't realise I had allow myself to be drifted into the past, the truth was the person staring back into the mirror is me, but I was wondering maybe I really I'm not weak, maybe I'm much more stronger than I look, maybe I need to take myself out, and buy myself a bottle of beer.
The thing was, I have always allowed people's judgment, determime if I'm on the right or wrong path, but the thing is I had never even wondered if people's judgment are accurate at all time, but yet I allowed their opinion haunt me making me feel sad because Of the artificial criticism and backlash I get because you're never allowed to voice your emotions.
It took me a day of standing in the mirror to know that I will need to stop living in the shadow of trying to be someone else, sometimes they say the society does not allow you to argue with someone who is elderly, and doing so could be that you've disrespected an adult who of course are meant to be right all the time, however is it also a norm for one to keep quiet when you know there's something you can do to make things right when someone has gotten it all wrong?
Most people that have been branded outcasts and outlaws were once people who tired to do things differently from their own perspective but were never supported or given the benefit of a doubt, instead they were backlashed and criticized, judged for trying to be different.
The truth is no human should currently have the right to say they're 100% correct because people who rely on their sheer brilliance and wit are not infallible, look at the titanic a ship that was considered unsinkable, yet it sank In it's first voyage, looking at my mirror I realised I never live by rules, after all the people who made them are also not infallible, so I don't care if the society feels if I'm irresponsible or ambiguous, the truth is man's grave is six feet deep but yet they will die alone, unless somebody will be willing to share my coffin in the future when I die, they're not entitled to navigate my life.
CONCLUSIONS
My fellow Uloggers, please define yourself according to your scale of success or failures, every life has a unique story and that's why the opinion of people should never be used to measure how far you've come, how thing should turn, if you're standing In the mirror just like me, don't forget to remember that you've come very far In this journey of life and you deserve some accolades, some encouragement and pat In the back, and if nobody is willing to do this, just for once laud yourself and celebrate yourself
many started the journey but have fallen by the wayside, you're still here in front of your mirror, the person inside you is stronger than people know until you decide whether you're a failures or success, nobody should brand you with their opinion of societal scale
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Thanks for reading .
You are right, we should always remember our dream. Feel our dream. What can do In our future.
yes dream is our life so successful than future is shining....... i see many many dream. and i will try my dream come ture. life is successfull.... feel best....