#ULOG - June 3, 2018 - An everyday struggle

I will never get used to sending/leaving my son to his Aunt before we go to work especially now that he sometimes doesn’t want to go. We have been doing this for the past 2 years and still, I feel empty and helpless leaving him.

Just this morning, he refused to unbuckle his car’s seatbelt, didn’t look at his Papa when he tried to pick him and go up to his Aunt at 4th floor. I know that he didn’t like to be left there even if he couldn’t talk. His facial expression and body language tell me so. I am a mother. I know what my kid wants - he wants to be with us but we couldn’t do it because we have also work to do. I tried calling him to say bye bye and play a peek-a-boo while his Papa is carrying him away from me but he never bothered to look at me.

We couldn't afford to have someone babysit our son at home, provide them visa so sending him to his Aunt, my husband's cousin, is one of the cheapest ways and of course safest because she is my son's Aunt to leave him there everyday.

As you noticed, all my blogs are mostly all about my family, my son. I am a working mom and wife whose​ life just revolves around my family - just home, work, house chores, family and I don't have any problem with it because I love to spend every second​ of my life just with them.