My Actifit Report Card: March 6 2019

Over 17,600 steps today.

I knew it was going to be a lot, I had over 3,500 before 8 this morning.

Busy day at work, again.

My baby @inaristorm came home today, I was so excited to see him!

He talked my ear off about all the awesome things they did. For example, staff put bird seed on the children's heads and then counted how many birds came. Inari had 11 birds come to him. He said that was his favorite.

He also did a harnessed rope course thirty feet in the air. He was one of only two in his class that didn't fall and his time was the fastest! He's always been a bit of a monkey. 😅

They had non-dairy options and he was able to have a Vegan soup that he said was insanely yummy while he was there. So awesome that #wolfridge is so inclusive of the vegan students that go there!

He just went to bed, like, an hour and a half late, but we both needed the reconnect time.

Someone at work today commented that I've been smiley lately, which took me by surprise. My horse died in 2010, kicking off my depression. I couldn't write anymore. My only happiness has been my children.

Forcing myself to write again until it took over and became compulsive was a massive step up. Less time on the internet, more time in my own head.

It's been an amazing ride. I'm still afraid of the "what if" issue. What if I'm just riding a high cycle and because it's so good, the next low cycle is going to kill me? What if I lose my mojo and the writing stops, and I crash back down?

It's scary to think about when depression has been who you are for nearly a decade.

But, maybe, just maybe, the decision to own everything about 2019 will have lasting affects. It's what I'm hoping for.

Here's to life, love and the pursuit of happiness.

Make 2019 your bitch. If you don't, it might drag you down the way of 2016. Don't be 2019's Harambe. 😉

Love you guys. ❤

Walking