I often feel inferior in my linguistic expression. My range of expressions is kind of rusty and I notice how few new words I have learned in my long life. But it's actually surprising because I've read a lot. It seems that I made little effort to practice words untrained for my tongue, to learn them by heart and to use them. The lazy self waved its hand and said: "Oh, let's postpone it until later." Which never came.

Those who remain on the inside of the social norm treat those who stay outside or flee with much mockery and dimness. You want to whistle such strange things back into your ranks and not feel reminded that something inappropriate is attached to every shaman and that he is one precisely because he has to be like that. ... He seems to have different views (visions) and does not care about what is being gathered. While he is very caring, but he is not allowed to be. ... But since we don't call anyone a shaman anymore but use a Steinerian or other human surnames it is only too understandable that one doesn't find such names particularly witty. Where is the symbolic? Now you have to incorporate the works and follow the same path that a Steiner or a Krishnamurti took. And the many others. ... which gives the insight that a path has to be mine and yours.

As you say, things are over- or downplayed, digested too hot or too cold, glimpsed...and forgotten. How long is the tension to hold? Cultivating the sister qualities of tension and relaxation, swinging in it instead of sliding off again and again in the direction of clenched teeth and total divergence to an indifferent sluggish mass that has trouble collecting itself again. It's hard to live there, draining all your strength.

... I met characters in books that were not the gentle, calm minds in their practice of the art of healing. They were considered nasty and strange and one really only went to them when there was no other way. As soon as you recovered, you made sure you got away from them. No smiling presence and yet the author was full of respect for him or her. Again a stylistic means of exaggeration, but one that reaches us. Everything that is exaggerated and played down merely shows us where we stand.

... Would I dare to meet a healer like that?

How can you not love this diversity?

P.S. your picture collection is beautiful. In particular the "Lo Zodiaco".