Your words are very vivid, and powerfully capture how I felt when my mum told me my father was ill, and I was rushing to the hospital. I think at times like this our body often goes into a kind of mind-numbed autopilot state, which allows us to function even though we're in a total panic. That's why I clearly remember every single detail of what happened, as you clearly do too. And of course I'm keen to find out what happened next!