Society doesn't take schizophrenia good, so ive heard. Im sorry you have to deal w this. Imagine the whole world being schizophrenic and a few "normal peaople" tehe. Im in a not talk so much zone, cuz pain, but ive felt some similar ways. I always hate hope and prettying shit up but light does exist. Conciousness has no gender, how bout that. Find a way out of that house brah and then reconsider. Sending much love <3)))