Living High Life on Credit w/ Four Cats

Hi, I'm Annie. 29 yr old in Los Angeles, living in commercially zoned warehouse in Skid Row. I moved here in 2016 with my cat, Esther and boyfriend, C. Day to day, I work from home full-time for a beer company and go to law school at night. I try to keep one foot in reality but often can't tell what foot is where.

C is a painter, pot smoker, thinker and full-time companion to me. We live on my salary (and credit card debt) alone. Sometimes that makes me feel taken advantage of but mostly I'm happy to support our little family. On bad days, I look up the meaning of resentment on the internet. On good days, I buck societal pressures of masculinity and quid-pro-quo relationships, and I'm thankful for a partner who feels the same. Gotta eat though. But not tit-for-tat? I'm pretty reckless with money, which is not something to be proud of, but I'll admit it now. Often I fantasize about living my fullest life and then killing myself.

Several months ago, we adopted an FIV+ cat named Hawk. We took in Hawk's sister too, but she died of colon cancer. Next, we took in a foster, Alaska, who is FelV+. Finally, C's grandpa died, and we swooped up his farm cat, who was previously prowling orchards in the Columbia River Basin. It's hard to say no. We love building (or catifying) our space to maximize cat happiness. If I don't kill myself, maybe I'll turn into a cat.

Because I live around people without means and with serious drug and mental health problems, I try to have a low societal impact. Although, when my anxiety gets the best of me, I start buying prepping materials (water, axes, filtration devices, rope, etc.) on Amazon. I want to acquire skills and be worthwhile. But mostly I'm just trying to stay above water and enjoy myself. Maybe make someone's day better. Maybe disrupt what's already out there. My plan is to add content to Steemit, but I have no other objective yet.