Conscious Centers Of Awareness | Pt. 1 - Human Beings, Crystallized Reflectors Of The Totality

I have often written about paradigms that question the fundamental idea that human beings are really and truly separate and individual deciders and controllers of their life. And it tends to get misunderstood, partly because I am a human being having grown up in contemporary western society and I constantly feel like I do things, like I make choices and like I am shaper of my fate, while simultaneously exploring the opposite.

Then again, the notion that I - as in the acting and self-reflecting individual - am "merely" observing things happen which the ego then moves to claim responsibility for after the fact so that the illusion of the separate individual can persist really can't be shaken off completely. And lately I have been feeling more and more that the old models hardly seem to fit anymore, that the old conceptions of reality and what we as human beings have to do with life can no longer accurately describe how things happen at all, or plausibly relay why anything should happen.

And so I want to elaborate on this model of being the "mere observer" of the illusory self-directing individual a bit further if only to sort my thoughts and get closer to a better understanding of how this observation model could work. If you want to come along you are totally invited <3

Crystal(s) forming

As a paradigm explorer I dig models. Granted, any model brings with it the danger that it may be taken for the actual - like mistaking a menu for the meal, or a road sign for the town - but models do have their merit, especially to give our logical mind something to rest on when we dive into unknown waters of new and fundamental questions about existence.

Well, these questions aren't really new at all, they might be some of the oldest questions humanity has ever posed - who are we, why are we here, how does this all work? - but I feel experience and insights of recent years have delivered unexpected fuel to the fire that these questions are made out of.

And so I find I keep coming back to the model of the crystal which goes kinda like this:

Human beings are nothing different - materially - than the rest of the universe is. They are made of the same "matter" on the physical plane - carbon, water, oxygen. Some would say we are made of star dust, others say we are basically minerals from the Earth. But where we agree is that somehow these materials come together in the place where we are individually, making up human being - a conscious, breathing being capabale of self-reflection, thought and language.

Whereas the traditional models hint at the idea that these materials bind together by some merely mechanical process, I tend to find more and more that anything material has its origin in the nonmaterial, that there is some"thing" (not a thing but probably a field of sorts) that allows things to bind together in a certain way in order to form new combinations. Far-out combinations. Inexplicably un-random combinations.

Like pouring metal shards onto a wooden plate - all the matter is right there. However, only through the application of the field - a magnetic field - do the shards turn into form and pattern, into something keenly more organized and tremendous than the mere shards could ever hope to do by "themselves" laying on the plate or being blown around by a breeze.

I think the universe works more like that and less like a random culmination of matter binding together by its own virtue or by mere chance movements of molecules.

If we look at the formation of a human being in the womb we can get an idea of this field in action. How do molecules know where they are supposed to go before they commit and bind? What exactly tells these cells to become bone and those cells to become skin?

Some would argue it's all written in the genetic code but then others will argue that the mere existence of the code and its immense complexity - and functionality - is proof in itself that randomness cannot account for its existence and continued application to make and shape bodies of conscious beings in such a far-out way like it does.

And while the discussion tends to overly focus on the existence of a god vs. the nonexistence of a god I think the field approach is much more down to Earth and useful, partly because it's a model that we can more readily understand and investigate. And because it does not readily invoke conceptions of god long hijacked by the gang.

Fields.

And so, if we take it a step further - to the next bigger zoom level - I feel like the very existence of human beings is a larger culmination of conscious energy of the universe. As if the totality of existence decided to grow some eyes (human beings) with which it can finally look at itself. Like human beings are mirrors of the totality, filtering and remarking all the complexity of the totality in their weird ways of being confused, in love, sad, happy and everything in between.

And - getting back to the concept of "the greatest idea ever" what could be more exciting for a totality to grow conscious, "independently" movable, seemingly separate parts that can talk to one another, that can hurt one another, love another and explore the mystery of the totality that originally knew but didn't pass its knowledge on to the individual. It's such a trippy idea and has so much promise!

On a good trip it's such a mindbender to think about it but taking into consideration how no individual can exist without its supporting living environment and how there really never is one cause for anything I increasingly feel like we - human beings - may "merely" (haha) be the... points in time and space where the... conscious potential of the totality formed a crystal of awareness and infinite potential, riding on a wave of highly organized matter, molecules and energy patterns that we simply refer to as "human beings".

This model is by no means new nor do I claim ownership of this idea by any means, it just curious and thrilling to see how I can see this being the case more and more, the more I experience and consider.

What do you think?

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