I have a lot of time on my own - so I have a lot of hobbies

So besides working, I was on my own a lot. I get social anxiety from time to time, big crowds is a little intimidating for me. Back home, I go out with one or two friends at a time, I get lost in a big group and almost always end up disconnected. I'd rather stay home and tend to my hobbies.

I have friends who can't stand to be on their own, they get bored, I do too, so I look for things to do. I have many hobbies. I also have very short attention span and am very curious. Thanks to Google, YouTube and Wikipedia, that took care of a lot of questions. Now thanks to Steemit, I get to spend time and make money at the same time haha.

I remember my last job was REALLY an easy one, I get a lot of free time so I took the time to learn French online (you can do that free using an app Duolingo). Although I still have no clue what the French people are talking about most of the time, at least now I can go to a restaurant and know what I'm ordering, that's an improvement haha. Now I'm working on my German.

Right, back in my last job, I made a few things at work haha~ don't ask how, I just did. At one point I was so into guns I made 2 dessert eagle guns out of paper and a shotgun too, somehow I lost the pictures and now I can only talk about it, hmm~ maybe I can give it a try again (would be hard since this boss is different from the last haha). Then I got interested in origami.

My hands were clumsy haha but my attention shifted before long and I became interested in blocks of wood found in Daiso, and I made this. As you can see it's not very smooth, I didn't have the right sandpaper and I got impatient to do it meticulously haha. I whittled out the shape at work, applied the colors at home (using cheap water color) then sprayed a layer of gloss spray paint to keep the color from fading. Of course it took a few days to finish this. After that I continued with a 'wife' for this gnome, and I got the shape carved out, but just didn't get to apply the color on and now it's somewhere at home. It never got finished and I moved on to something else. I had extra blocks of wood so I made this.
I lost patience with it and that's why it looked unfinished.

For a while, I was looking for a butterfly knife and I bought it in one of the Pasar Malam in PJ, but it was so heavy it was difficult to practice the swings, so I looked on YouTube for some alternatives hahaha~ guess what I found? So I made this following a tutorial on YouTube and it was so nice I made 3 and gave one to a friend. That made flicking the butterfly knife a lot easier and not risk cutting myself haha.

Then I moved on. I always dabbled here and there, this time I wanted to try my hand at sketching. I've always liked to doodle, but never really paid attention to drawing anything serious. This sketch brings back a lot of memory... it's in one of my doodling books, but I took a picture of it. Come to think of it, I never really mastered sketching haha.

I guess I'm still better doodling, I never really sketched anything more after that, although I did another one, it wasn't good. Some of my doodles:

When I came to Germany, it was very tough not having someone to talk to, literally. I knew nobody around my age, everybody I knew didn't speak English (except my boss, but that doesn't count coz I can't really talk personal stuff with him). The cold winter was nice, but there was a kind of sad mood to it and I got so attracted to the 'naked' trees.

Before the fidget spinner was on 'fire', I was bored and searched for things to do, initially I was interested in the cube thing, but it was too hard to make, so I went on eBay to buy the bearings and made this:

If you noticed, it was attached to using zip ties, I messed up with super glue, so zip ties will do, but they need constant readjusting as they tend to run out of alignment in my pocket haha. Anyways I got a proper one now, so these are left in my backpack.

It was quite a tough time in March, especially when someone decided to leave my life.

Finally in April, there came the closure.

When I went to Abu Dhabi for a job in May, the desert place was equally lonesome. There were no one to talk to except during dinner at the mess hall. Then I tried the trees again. This time with leaves...

I remember reading about people going to the mountains, looked for tree hole to tell their secrets into. For a long time, I have people coming to me telling their secrets... sometimes I felt like a tree too~

Lately I am back in Germany and I am running out of ideas to keep myself occupied. I took up some online courses (free of course, I'm a cheap-skate haha), downloaded a lot of movies (just to fill up my external hard drive, I have yet to watch) and downloaded some templates to make a cardboard Glock 19 handgun, now I have to look for cardboards.

Please suggest if you have any ideas what can I do/make. Even better, if you can give me an idea or a blog which talks about social anxiety. Signing off.