The only outlet I found was in partying and trying to create that feeling I first experienced in that jungle in Mexico. But I was chasing a sythentic version that just doesnot compare to the real thing.

If only we knew this BEFORE the synthetic city days. Our tendency to dualisms... ugh... city to know we prefer the wild nature, synthetic to know we prefer natural highs... sukkha dukkha ... such is life! 😘