To be able to write it all out is definitely a gift. Grieving is such a complicated,multi layered thing. Been putting so much hope out into the universe and its hard to understand where it's all gone. Colette believed in documenting and sharing her experience online and its appropriate to honour her by writing about her here.
thank you @shivvi, I did think of that, was it appropriate to be so public, but Colette put herself out there, she wanted to share her life so that she could inspire others and help them, this felt right to keep that going, I am usually very private but I really wish to share her with everyone x