Jati diri

Jati diri

the fact that i failed in my todays competition..... it really hurts me. well i am not aiming 1st on that competition but it really humiliate me when i cant speak properly to people around me. im ashamed of myself and i am so thankful to the God that my temper is still on my control. I hope I can stay for a while in an isolated island where im free to do anything that i want to do. but the first thing that i want to do is speak to myself. im so bad at speaking in bahasa and even english. i hate myself so much. i feel like i want to kill myself or just lock myaelf in a room. i want to confess everything before i go to sleep. i feel so sleepy rn but afraid that i will be dreaming that kind nightmare again. i hate that.