I feel you, @bluefinstudios. We've just had another scare with my mum. We nearly lost her three years ago and she was in a bad way for many months before she miraculously got better and kept on living. But she's never been 100% after that so the thought of losing her is rather present all the time. My relationship with my mum is an unusual one that I can't even figure out myself so I don't really know how I feel about it, let alone how I will feel when her time comes. I have a feeling it won't be easy. It never is. Enjoy the time you have left with your beautiful mum. She is lucky to have someone to snuggle too.