Early this Morning, I had a Visit from My Dead Friend
Nope. This is not fiction.
I had a pretty solid sleep last night, so when I awoke at 7 am, I thought, hmm not bad, because my sleep patterns are irregular at best, and non-existent at worst. I was going to get up, but I just had this uncontrollable urge to shut my eyes again; not the normal I'm-going-to-laze-around-in-bed-cus-it's-Sunday kind of urge, but a deep need to close my eyes.
I woke up exactly one hour later, feeling happy and sad and moved, and thrilled, and mostly, in awe. You see, one of my very best friends, Silvia, died from cancer a few short weeks ago, and being in Mexico, I did not get a chance to say goodbye in person.
I wrote a post seven months ago when I received the devastating news about her illness but mostly about who she was and what her amazing legacy was to me. She and I had been emailing ever since I heard the news, but I just never got a chance to hug her goodbye.
This morning I did.
She was in my dream; not a normal dream. But she was there. She was here. We both told each other how much we loved each other, how much we missed each other, and then I gave her a huge hug. I could feel her body. She turned to walk away, but looked over her shoulder and said, "one is never enough", and came back to give me one more :)
As she was turning to leave for the last time, I said, "Take care." She turned to me and said, "How the fuck am I supposed to do that?"
That may sound horrible, but I laughed because Silvia spent her life questioning things, and I suppose she's still doing just that...wherever she is.
Wow what a great experience @lynncoyle1! Silvia must have a good sense of humour! 😃
I'm not sure if you know, but many people believe that there is something like a family of souls. This means that you are surrounded by a group of souls who accompany you all the time (I mean also past and future incarnations). It is a joyful theory in that the people with whom you have lived close in this life will probably appear in your next life, so when they leave this world, they leave only for a moment.
Hey @see-it-feel-it, nice to see you here :) Silvia had a wicked dark sense of humor (like me :), so her comment to me is just sooooo the Sil I knew and loved :)
I have heard of that (just read a book about it actually) and I LOVE that whole concept. What a cool idea to think that we have those past and future souls, floating around us simultaneously! I simply cannot believe that what we see is what we get! :)
Thanks again for stopping by! I've been trying to open your "Angel" post but we've had wicked storms yesterday and our power kept popping on and off; I finally gave up and read an actual book. haha imagine!! It's sunny now, so I'm going to have a look at it all; the support I've seen for myself and everyone nominated is simply beautiful. Thank you for coming up with such an awesome idea :)
I also like this concept! After a deep research I found a lot of information that confirms this theory. That's why I think there's something about it.
I'm glad that "Angel post"attracts a lot of attention because it means that our community is very close-knit and we support each other.
I am also glad that you get a lot of love from Steemians. 💙 That's good because we want to appreciate people who are doing a really good job. :)
Can you tell me what is the title of the book you are reading?
That's so interesting! This concept makes life seem just magical!! The book I read is fiction, called Infinite Sacrifice by L.E. Waters; it's about a woman, Maya, who dies, but when she gets to heaven, she has to "re-live" who she was in all of her past lives, and in each of those lives, is someone she knows from another life (as a different person). It was this book that solidified how I thought about our past, present and future selves. Let me know what you think about it if you do read it :)
And regarding the "angels" here, all I can say is, "you sure have your work cut out for you, trying to make a choice between so many nominations"!! :) Regardless of those chosen, it's great to see so many on your post; this really is a great community!
This book seems to be interesting and also has the e-book form, which for me is a big plus. If I read it, I will let you know how I liked it.
It is a pleasure to do something for such a great community. :)
I found it because I have a KOBO e-reader and receive daily emails with free and discounted books through a website called Bookbub . You should check it out; I haven't paid full price for a book in a long time and of course there's a lot of junky books that don't sell for obvious reasons haha, but there's a lot of great ones too!
@see-it-feel-it IS THIS THE SIGN THAT LYNN DESERVES SOME WINGS ???? I think so 😉
I believe that the community will make the right choices. :)
We will😉👍
Beautiful and amazing. Thank you for sharing @lynncoyle1
Thank you @robertandrew! It was "beautiful and amazing"!! and I feel so fortunate and blessed that she chose to do that for me :)
@lynncoyle1,
A beautiful experience. Who knows what it means exactly ... but maybe it doesn't matter. Whatever the cause, the effect is a thing in-and-of-itself. You've had a tough couple of years regarding illness. Hang in there girl.
Quill
Thank you Quill! It was so surreal and so beautiful, and you're right, it doesn't matter about the cause etc. What matters is how it made me feel, which was incredibly blessed and fortunate.
Yep, there's been plenty of illness over the last little bit, but do you know what? There's been so much good during that time too; illness really has a way of either dragging you down, or making you realize what's important in life. I've made a conscious decision to go with door number two on that one :)
Thanks for stopping by Quill.
@lynncoyle1,
At the end of all this, you're going to be a poet too. You're getting philosophical.
Quill
haha I've always been philosophical and a bit of a closet poet :)
I love this, I have had many experiences like this. Don't try to reason or understand it but accept it for what it is.
I totally agree! Somethings just are; I'm so glad that you've experienced the same @hezziebees :) It really is an amazing feeling, isn't it?!
Interesting. My grand ma wa sin nu dreams also the othe rnight. I guess she wants to reminds us of her upcoming birthday next month 😃.
Glad you finally able to said goodbye to her tru a dream. ❤️
awww thank you @joyrobinson! and happy birthday (early) grandma!! :) I'm so glad that she visited you; it's such an amazing and blessed thing to happen, isn't it?! :)
Thank you for stopping by :)
I guess she knew that you didn't feel well because you didn't have a chance to hug her goodbye so she came to you to change it :)
I guess so, right?! I didn't know that I needed that to be truthful; I thought I'd processed the fact that I couldn't say bye to her in person, but I guess she just knew better. She'd love that too ... she always like to be right haha
That's right, Silvia. Always question things. No matter where you are.
Oh, she would have loved you. Thank you :)
I'm glad you got a chance to really say goodbye. It sounds like it helped! Good thing you decided to get a little more sleep.
I didn't even realize how much I needed that until it happened! haha you're right! I could have easily gotten up instead :)
What a beautiful closure to one stage of a friendship. Take care Lynn.
That's a perfect way to describe it @livinguktaiwan! Thank you :)
What an awesome gift. She knew you needed this.
It's so interesting because I didn't even know that I needed it until I woke up and realized what had happened. So unbelievably amazing the whole experience!