Random thoughts 2

I would not believe it but I miss working. I miss being in an office.

Talking to people, asking them how their day went.

How before I did not look forward seeing people that I don't like. People who I thought was doing a bad job of leading people and were more interested in lining their pockets with money rather than supporting people and giving them a chance to rise up.

I am naive in the sense that I viewed leadership as a way to make the lives of other people better and have the satisfaction of seeing them improve.

I like money and rising in the ranks as well because it can give me an opportunity to help more people. Yet all of these were dashed lately and I feel broken

Broken to the point it is hard to come back.

I sit in my room. Watching videos and anime. I lie in my bed with my phone in my hand and continue to watch videos until I fall asleep.

I awake to the bright morning sun and a sibling checking up on me if I ate. I mostly say yes. My stomach growls at the blatant lie but they can't hear it.

I boot up my computer and set off to find a new job. A career, or even a purpose. I look at all the listings.

I come across a message in LinkedIn. It says take care of your health and peace of mind because when you die, your job immediately goes up and people will find a new one. Everyone is replaceable.