I know exactly how you feel. It isn't easy to find the discipline that you need, and it's very easy to fall into old habits once you do. I'm always putting off the things I need to do for the things I want to do. But I've also learned to accept this about myself because I'm almost 41 and its been a vicious circle. If I was going to change, I guess of would have done so before now. I've never missed a deadline though, I seem to work better under pressure anyway. So, maybe it's a good thing?