hey dear @thehippierays,
your emotions hit me a lot, I feel sick when there is no remedy for things. I suffer from chronic headache for years and it is very ugly rather than pain, which I do not think is at all comparable to yours, for the fact that sometimes I seem to go crazy and it seems to me to be in a tunnel that echoes continuously. and I have absolutely no optimism or strength that you have :-)) I hope for you all the best