@stewak so heartening to read to whole story. Certain things happen for reason on which we do not have any control. I am sorry for chad loss, but also felt good that it takes the human out of you. In India, here we use to say that goddess saraswati comes to our throat twice in a day and if anything spill at that time it happen in reality. Though such saying was meant not to speak any foul or bad things about other but in practical we do lose control on getting angry and we do bot have control over mind and heart. We do not intend to do something wrong but it hapens unintentionally.
Glad to see the loss sgow you the brighter side of yours and you would not be what you are today.

RIP chad....👍