Dear diary/ Random thoughts

Ive been saying it and ima keep on saying it. Some Fucking way, im going to heal myself. Im going to find the problem and cure it. Its easy to doubt hearing it, its even easier to doubt when you got the shit i do. I feel it in my bones, i feel it in my blood, i will heal. The fact shit like this exists makes me loathe existence itself. Love?, yeah fucking right. And to think many have it worse than i. Its fucking bullshit. Most "facts" you hear today are bullshit. You cant beat an invisible enemy, well not easily. Blahblah raise your vibration, raise your resolve, live your life, for here it is.