I Miss You....

Most nights i try to block u out of my thoughts
Those sweet thoughts
Thoughts about good times of the times I thought the moments were infinite
I cant tell,maybe u knew there would be an end to it all
The promises were so pure
I believed every breath was pure oxygen when u said you would always love me
For some reason the silence never hurt after those words
Im still confused
Should I believe or give up?
Do u still love me?
Or was I just another subject of your pleasure hunt?
How can I stop thinking all these when the smiles seemed so pure the sex so sweet the moans so penetrating
Was it me?
Did i fuck it all up?
I suck at love I know!!
But I have loved no other like you
In the real world we cant be us without judgement
We cant be
In your world i cant fit
Yet against all odds I have loved you beyond the limits of the heart
I miss u
I hurt for u every single night
You wont even say a word
I miss u
Why do u suddenly hate me so much?
The smiles the laugh the guiness in bed the sex the walks dowm town the hugs kisses and cuddling were heaven to me
I dont know how to express it in phrases of complex pursuation
All I know and know is that I miss u so much
I still love you
If for some reason our paths never cross, I will carry this love to my grave with a smile
You gave me happiness like no other
Short as it might have been
It was HAPPINESS
( wrote it for my ex)