Thank you so much @kaelci - and wow you and I have much in common! I never had girl-friends, and in college ALL my friends were guys, not a female buddy in all my years there, nor when I entered the work force. Women complained about boyfriends or husbands and bored me. Men talked about fast engines, guns, tall tales. They kidded each other. Openly insulting each other. In fun. Women would do the phony nice compliments then knife each other behind their backs. Where were the women like you? Off with the guys? LOL! Finally I got married and socialized with other moms just a wee bit, but I've been a recluse ever since the three kids grew up. You say this so well: "they" the hot girls would swarm whenever I developed a crush. Like they just "knew." That's it!! Heaven forbid the unpopular girl should enjoy the attentions of a guy, any guy! (Thanks again for reading!)