As a Christian person I can tell you that doubts and fears keep us away from blessings, we will all fear, fear and doubt at some point, but within us there is a spirit of courage and self-control given by God to face all obstacles, and the most important thing @chbartist, is to never stop dreaming and believing, the word of God says that: if you believe you will see the glory, it seems easy no? anyone can tell you I believe when everything is fine: there is money, resources, health, but what is difficult when the situation is contrary as in the case of the story told here, the kingdom suffers violence, and only the brave ones snatch it away.

Blessings!