Lost in Lyrics #1 - Next to Me
Music is one of the single greatest human creations.
The first song I want to break down is one that has recently become one of my favorites, and made me cry the first dozen or so times I listened to it.
Relationships can be difficult, especially when those relationships start out in a less than scrupulous way. The stresses of daily life can weigh on individuals, and a difference of opinion on serious matters can create animosity between people who would do anything for one another. Even with the weight of the world on their shoulders, those who experience true love can push past the darkest of days, to better appreciate the sun when it shines.
I dedicate this song to my beloved and beautiful @cryptomomma, who through thick and thin, continues to stand "Next to Me".
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, MO! I LOVE YOU!
Somethin' 'bout the way that you walked into my living room
Right off the bat, the lyrics start making sense on an esoteric level...
Casually and confident lookin' at the mess I am
But still you, still you want me
She carries herself as if she belongs no matter where she is, and I'm quite the opposite. I am a mess of awkward social interactions, unpopular opinions, and an undeserved ego, but none of that mattered, and she was always interested in knowing more.
Stress lines and cigarettes, politics and deficits
Late bills and overages, screamin' and hollerin'
But still you, still you want me
We are no stranger to stress. With an 11 month old baby, living from paycheck to paycheck, and in my case, from post to post, with at least one bill collector breathing down our necks at any given time. It doesn't help that our beliefs and politics rarely align. I fight and argue with this woman more than anyone I've ever been with, but through it all, here we are, standing strong.
Oh, I always let you down
You're shattered on the ground
But still I find you there
Next to me
I rarely seem to follow through on my promises. It's a character flaw I've always had, and have always struggled to overcome. I say I'll help with chores, or spend less time working, but time seems to wipe all short-term memory of the agreement, and it creates problems that end in the same fights over and over. No matter how bad it ever gets, or when I start thinking she's on her way out, I look into her eyes and know she'll be here forever.
And oh, stupid things I do
I'm far from good, it's true
But still I find you
Next to me (next to me)
I'm incredibly compulsive and spontaneous, to a fault. My rash decisions are often made without consulting with, or even talking to, those whom the decisions would affect. I am by no means perfect, far from it. I have a dark past, and continue to be less than altruistic, but she loves me none-the-less, and accepts me for who I am.
There's something about the way that you always see the pretty view
Overlook the blooded mess, always lookin' effortless
This most beautiful of creatures can always see the light at the end of the tunnel. Often, it doesn't even occur to her that the world can be anything but wonderful. I'm a little bit older, and my upbringing was no where near as good, and my youth created an adult who can't help but believe the world is full of pain at every turn. I love the way she loves, and I sincerely hope the ugliness of the world never veils her shining outlook.
I got no innocence, faith ain't no privilege
I'm not always a great person, and I have a very hard time believing things will always be better another day for the sake of believing it. I'm very often a pessimist, because pragmatism has come to be a close friend of mine.
I am a deck of cards, vice or a game of hearts
She gave me a deck of cards for my birthday a couple years ago. Written on each card is a different reason why she loves me. This line stands out to me more than any other in this song, and still puts a lump in my throat.
So thank you for taking a chance on me
I know it isn't easy
But I hope to be worth it (oh)
I know I'm not perfect, and I'm not always great at showing you how I feel, but I love you more than anyone I've ever had the privilege of knowing. You saved my life, and I will be eternally grateful. I hope that all of the struggles that come from my inability to express myself, and my lack of consideration, will all be outshone by the life, and the happiness, that we build and grow together. I'm so proud of what you're accomplishing, and I can't wait to see what the future holds for MOJO
Very insightful, in depth and sharing of the personal you.
Music is a wonderful thing. The frequency of different sounds affecting our brain waves and neurons to fire. I have not heard the word frissons before so it was great to learn a little more in that arena.
It's brave of you to admit that personal stuff about yourself on whaleshares. Thanks for being vulnerable and transparent!
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Thanks, @scuzzy! You're the man!
Awesome song, music is so powerful. Nicely put. Upvoted :)
I experience synesthesia, I see patterns and colours sometimes, looking forward an article about the frissons. I hope there are people who also feel this way about my music.