Why is yours

Last night I wrote a poem about suicide and those with questions who are left behind to pick up the pieces of their life. I was asked;

Where does the motivation come from, considering you're not going through a heartbreak?
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Motivation is a little understood process I think as people seem to think it is something they need but, it is something they already hold. Motivation is a movement from the internal self to the external world, it is the reason and purpose as to why to act and is therefore personal. People can ascribe it to others but it is false because, no other can act for us. In action, we are alone. Inspiration however is different, it is the external that ignites a flame in the internal and is a catalyst for creating that purpose, a thread on which to create purpose.

For me at least, and I can only speak for myself through observation of my experience, I do not need to be in a situation to be able to write about it or for that matter, be inspired by or motivate to create and act. I have had quite a diverse life that has offered a little of the best and much of the difficult circumstances that are suitable to reflect on. Someone asked me recently if what I write about current circumstances is "real or just Steemit embellishment?"

I don't have the need to embellish in some areas and if there are times I extend the experience in writing, it is in the positive, not the negative. I don't search for sympathy or attention, I am not that kind of animal so when it comes to writing about hardship, I don't need to dig deeply. I withhold a lot as not everything is suitable for immutability.

However, I am also not planning my demise through suicide so, where does the motivation to write about it come from? I think about it a lot from many perspectives, I imagine scenarios, simulate various concepts mentally. But, when it comes to the experience of it, I have a past.

This is actually why I wrote the poem last night, to get in touch with my past so that I can write something else about the topic. As said, I have had a full life in some regard and near desert in others which means conflict and psychological disturbance. When I write, I write from my experiences (what else can one do) and my fiction is a creative extension of a lifetime of events, and my Steem posts are a look at Steem from what experience has taught me. When it comes to inspiration, it is literally everywhere and I do not understand why so many people have so much trouble finding things to write about unless, their experiences of life are also very limited.

I don't need to be going through a heartbreak to write about it as I have known heartbreak. Similarly, I don't need to be contemplating suicide to have suicidal thoughts. We all have our approaches to life and one of mine is to think a lot about a lot of things, to engage my experience to try to understand the world and, simulate what the future may become based on what the past has taught.

The past is always growing and for each life, the future is continually reducing. People spend their time avoiding life, burying themselves into entertainment and then wonder where life has gone, where their youth faded away to. Living a life in fear of judgement of themselves and by others by not living a life at all. Avoidance. But, that is just my opinion and, my experience.

When it comes to putting my experience on the blockchain I hope for reward. Yes, I hope that I get monetary rewards but, I hope that my experiences of this life and the way I see the world has value in itself, that someone will take an idea I have and build upon it or, hear some words based on what I know and then, improve their own experience, think again, grow. My entire blog is based on my life experiences and I hope that there is value in them for others, not just myself.

It is shared experience that creates a community and a large part of that sharing is an inspirational catalyst for personal motivation. Experiencing poverty may move someone to help those in need. Experiencing illness may push for other's health. Experiencing love can only result in the understanding that it is all that really matters.

Why we do the things we do is our experience to contemplate. The motivation for me to write is mine, the experiences are mine but, we likely have a lot more in common than what separates us.

Taraz
[ a Steem original ]