This is totally beautiful, your poem looks like a prose fiction and obviously the longest free verse I've ever seen.
I love the fact that the poem employed paradox to narrate the ironies of life. It'd somehow absurd in speech but when you look deep you will understand the paradox portrayed by the poem emphasises the harsh realities of life.

I love your ending stanza, it's Just like saying to live one must first die, which seems contradicting but absolutely very factual.

Splendid poem @rok-sivante