proof of steem by @mermaidvampire: stay positive

Good day steemians, how's your day today here in steemit? I would like to participate my writing now by @mermaidvampire 's proof of steem. My experienced today is like my experienced here in steemit. Proof of steem? Maybe yes, because it's here where I can express my emotions. So let's begin how my story for today.

As you can see in the photo, that was taken awhile ago. Before I arrived here in Cebu to finish my study because this will be my last semester to finish it. I'm planning to have a job where I can support my studies at the same time I can go to school to study. My sister has a personal problems and I'm old enough to live on myself. I took that photo in the place where many applicants. I'm planning to apply in BPO community, (I'm a little bit ambitous.lol) I want to apply in BPO because I wanted to work in night time and go to school in day time. But to be frank I'm aiming a bigger salary. I have a big tuition to pay, to pay the rent and for my food.
In the first company I was planning to apply was a bit a messed. I didn't know that they won't accept students there. I wasn't planning to tell it but when one of the staff asked me during screening surprised me.

"What year did you graduated?"
I never expected that I will answer right away and it's too late to regret it. I answered it right away.

"I'm still studying at the moment."

One of the staff then told me that they won't accept students there. I was disappointed at the same time blame myself. I waited there because I have companion and he was applying also. I waited him to be finish there even though I felt jealous. Two hours passed he was not called yet. I went outside where I could stay. I was surprised when I saw him outside. He was not called he said so he went out. We ate lunch at 3 in the afternoon. After we ate, we proceed to the other company. During the question of the staff there I lied about my study. But when the interviewer started asking, I answered him. I was so nervous and I was mad at myself. He said that my voice is kind of robotic and have a grammatical error. He also said that I lack of energy in speaking. I felt down because of that. I kept on writing but still I was not good enough. What have I've been doing of my life. I felt like crying but I didn't do it. Despite from the fact that I pitty myself, I want to continue in looking for a job. I will just think of it that my failures will help me to gain more confidence. If it's not now, I'm sure someday I will. There might no assurance of it, I don't care. I will stay positive to fight my stupid emotions of feeling down. I will just think that they are the one who wasted me of not letting me in. lol.

anyway thank you for reading