Truth Talks, Refocusing, Power Up’s and Big Mugs

Full disclosure- This is some weird, too honest style blog that for some reason I felt the need to write. Feel free to skip to that super positive “Power Up” part further down, as the first part is ramblings... you’ve been warned.

I’ve been struggling with Steem lately, and no it has nothing to do with the price.

I’ve been struggling with finding my place, to stop giving too much to those who will never stop taking, to stop saying yes to “volunteer” (after being asked) for many essentially full time jobs here, to quit focusing on the wrong things - which always leads to disappointment for me.

I’ve been struggling with by inability to not jump full force into every single thing, and my horrid personality flaw where I have this inability to walk away... no matter if all the signs say I should.

This has led to some serious frustration, to me probably being overly blunt, annoyed and taking some things too personally. I get emotionally attached to things, and to people, and I think that means that everything is personal to me. Which sometimes can be positive and other times not so much.

As lately I’ve been feeling like I am constantly having to push back, constantly having to defend myself, or deal with just such damn nonsense that I don’t know why the hell I am even here anymore.

For awhile now I’ve been barely holding on... just convincing myself every single day not to quit. And I don’t even mean cash out.. as cashing out right now is just silly. I mean walk away entirely and let my STEEM just sit until the next bull run.

Just hope everyone figures out their issues here, stops fighting, and actually makes a plan to work forward and focus on longevity of Steem itself.. not their short term gains. You know, like a vision and an organized effort to implement the shit that needs to be done. As god knows I can’t seem to make any leeway on it.

Refocusing

The problem is I’ve been doing Steem all wrong - and if I don’t start having some fun and ignore the bs, I won’t get out alive.

_{Someone told me a few months ago that if I don’t rage at least once, I’m not a true steemian.. so I guess the feeling is pretty common. I guess that’s what happens when you put your whole self and fully commit to something, sometimes you just break.}

I’m a fixer by nature.. and it’s just extremely frustrating to me to not be able to fix things.. I can’t sit by and not attempt to fix all the things.

But I’ve realized that’s not my place.

So going forward I will be refocusing on only the things I can control, and the projects that I’m actually directly involved in... and not just helping everyone with all the projects.

I think this will result in a more positive impact overall, as well as me just being a nicer person 😄 as spreading myself too thin isn’t doing anyone a favor.

I’ll also be attempting to get back into the habit of enjoying this platform and interacting... which means I am also taking a break from discord. As it has become a place where my time is sucked trying to help with many things, answer for things I have no control over, etc.. and it pulls me away from the platform itself.

I’m not saying all this to complain or whatnot.. I’m just trying to be honest. I’m sharing my thoughts as I think many are struggling with the same things lately, and I always have felt it’s beneficial to hear.. you’re not alone.

... and big mugs, as everyone needs a big mug.

Power Up’s - AKA, My recommitment to Steem

I have been pretty committed to Steem long term since I joined the platform over a year and a half ago. My goal was power up all earnings (including non content ones), grow my account, and work towards the vision that I had for Steem.

To me Steem isn’t about a quick profit, it’s about being part owner in a technology that I believe has the potential to change the world.

That’s always been my belief, and after some bumps I’m getting back on track to grow my account to help accomplish that vision.

So after moving around some of my holdings and transferring to my new account, I’m about 40 STEEM away from reaching dolphin status again.

I also am doing some conversions of SBD and by end of week should be sitting at a little over 10K STEEM in all, which is a pretty big accomplishment to me.

I’ll be using this stake to support contributions I feel add value, manually curating, and using it to actually start growing my account as well... which is kind of new for me.

I will be holding some liquid as there are some projects on the Steem horizon that I may want to invest in, including a new game that I am super excited about. 🙌🏼

So this is me recommitting to Steem.. but the #newsteem Justine... #newstine? I’m powering up, will work on growing my account while also supporting others.. I will put my Steem Cheerleader hat back on and do what I can to help spread the good news of Steem. Continuing with my recent goal to share more and enjoy this place, while not getting sucked into too much stuff behind the scenes.

I’m not sure what this post is... I guess it’s me saying -

I get it’s been tough, I feel it too... but I’m not giving up, and I hope neither are you.

_{Love poem? 🤔}

So let’s get this fatty back in the ocean...

And have some fun! 😎

Oh and if you aren’t in the new Steem telegram group, you should be - https://t.me/... we have gifs there.

Much Love and Steem On,

Justine