Now I wonder how come those two things metaphysics and aesthetics got involved together??I hated research but if you are really devoted and honest about your research then it is really something worthy of doing.

Most of the young researchers like to focus on their own words instead of coming with an actual result.They don't like to think just use other people's work in their own.In your case,I think you are doing it from your own interest,I don't think you are doing it just for achieving a prestigious degree.That really deserves compliments.

Yes,I realized very well that you were talking about your break up situation.I hope you find some peace and feel better in your heart.Sometime we should just forgive people and learn to let go.Although,it is just my personal opinion.

Don't change the way you write.I really loved to read your story.I think form now on I will often come back to see what you write.

Best wishes for you.